Thinking about future projects and options, feeling panic at the thought that I’m entering my 10th year in my first job, remembering about the “where do you see yourself in 5 years” questions during my job-hunting days fresh out of college – those are the things that I’ve been pondering on lately. I know; it’s depressing. And I don’t have any plan just yet. I don’t mean that I want to resign from my current post, at least not anytime soon. Stability is still the priority. They say the best way to be rich and free at the same time is to be self-employed – start a business or something. The thing is, I’m not particularly versed in economics and I hate math in so many forms, so that option may be quite a stretch; most importantly, I don’t currently have the finances to start anything. I’ve heard about friends venturing into stock trading, so I did research on futures trading. It gave me nosebleeds. I don’t want to get filthy rich anyway. I just want to live comfortably and not at all filthy. So how do I start the change? I believe these things have their way of being revealed. I just know I don’t want to stand still and wait. Nobody’s getting any younger.

When we visited a friend who recently gave birth, we brought some baby clothes and bath products for the newborn and some fruits for the mother. It was quite funny that we overestimated the little boy’s size! He was but two weeks old and we bought some shirts that would fit a one-year old (possibly). I so wanted to hold the baby but in the end I got too cowardly; he was so soft and fragile that I vowed to just come back after a few months so I can play with him. As author Dorothy L. Nolte said, “Of all the joys that lighten suffering earth, what joy is welcomed like a newborn child?”

I’m sad today because I lost the bidding on the Cinderella (starring Lea Salonga) tickets I’ve been drooling over at Ebay. Well, sort of. I stretched my budget for as high as I could, even e-mailed and texted the seller to ask if she can end the auction early for me (which is welcome per the product description) and I’ll deposit the payment at once to her savings account, but I guess (maybe/probably/I don’t know) it’s not meant to be. When the bidding price reached my maximum, I gave up. It’s still much, much lower than the actual ticket price and the seats are very good (almost front-row seats at the orchestra center), I decided to stop pushing it; I don’t know how much the other bidder is willing to pay for those precious tickets and I have to set a limit to my spending. Instead, I’ll go to SM Mall of Asia tomorrow to look for available seats, albeit it will surely be at a much less appealing location. I’m a little bit disappointed but I’m not letting this deter me from watching the show. Anybody care to lend me some binoculars?