So I have this “Ballads” playlist on my iPod. Today, I decided to hook up the player with my living room speakers and I concluded that I’m in a somber mood because suddenly these songs that I only play when trying to sleep took on a different meaning. Tina Arena’s take on Elton John’s Your Song actually made me want to call my brother to come home and bring a guitar so we can jam. Maybe it’s the setting and I hit the right volume, I can clearly hear the instrumentation, even the vague sounds of Stagg Drums in the background.

Now I only need it to rain outside and this will be a perfect somber day. I already have my coffee.

My neighbors must hate me now. I think it’s close to 2 weeks that I’ve let my alarm clocks – yes, plural – make those awful, awful noises for a stretch of time without actually waking up. It’s just that I’ve been kidding myself – nay hoping – that I’ll be able to start the day really early, but what actually happens is that I go to bed rather late because I can’t seem to concentrate on my work and finish everything by the time I’ve set for the day. Scheduling be damned, it means nothing if you don’t follow it. I think I need to find a sort of tap and die app for my phone alarms. Heh.

Anyway, so my sister’s laptop broke – for a few minutes, it amazingly restored itself – and immediately we thought about a replacement. We both can’t live without a computer, so  I understood her pain. But, of course, she doesn’t want those clearance laptops, which she can easily afford. She’s already set her eyes  on a Vaio or a Mac. Sometimes, when I think about the things that we don’t have and the things that we don’t really work for to have, they can really get me down. But, really, dwelling on it is pretty much a waste of time. I guess the only thing I can do is assess my choices and see where I can make adjustments for the better. Then work on it. To that I tell myself, goodluck.

I had 5 coupons for P700 worth of food each at Barrio Fiesta. We were supposed to use them for our parents’ anniversary last January but their staff and I apparently didn’t understand each other when I called for a reservation so we came there at the time when the restaurant was closed for a private party. So what to do with all those coupons (Php3,500 worth of food and drinks)? My siblings and I (there are 4 of us) ordered as much food as we can eat, and more. Because the coupons are not valid for takeout, we just let them serve all the food that we meant to takeout and then had them bagged before we left the place. It’s far from wasteful, although you’d think I’ll buy food storage as well, because what I took home lasted the whole day that followed.

My two sisters and I are scheduled to go on a trip on the 3rd week of March. We’ve already paid for the plane tickets — and they’re nontransferable and nonrefundable. I’m all set to scout for canon camcorders for the purpose of this trip, but things are looking rather bleak about this plan. Both my sisters are facing some possible scheduling problems, one work-related and the other personal. Except for my feeling of regret over the plane tickets, I’m not really that much bothered if we’ll have to reschedule or worse not go to our supposed destination at all. I guess I’ve become too used to this (cancellations, foiled plans). Or nothing really excites me anymore, which really sounds sad if I think of it. So for now I won’t think about it and just wait for the day to come.